All the hours spent alone Crafting these anti-poems All the blisters on my thumbs Rehearsing till they are numb Got a show tonight Pack the gear up tight Harness stage fright Not going on till midnight Early on no ones arrived Get a drink to pass the time Tune the strings and run the lines Anticipating landing on cloud 9 Got a show tonight The lineups quite a sight Burning feet will alight Stage even has some height Getting out getting around Lugging my stuff all around town Cutting loose and feeling wild Living for your grooving smiles Well now it’s almost time to start Getting hyped to do my part Curtains rise up in my mind A big thumbs up to the sound guy Got a show tonight Kill the house lights Leave the blinking brights Gotta set the mood right

There’s a storm coming You can feel it in the air A big storm coming No animals anywhere Look at all the faces As they’re walking down the street Look at all the faces That won’t even walk the streets There’s a plague coming One that’s going to wipe us out Not the kind you’re thinking The one that we bring about Feeding the machine That we don’t even see Feeding the machine That destroys the sea Maybe at some point there was a disconnect Now we’re all strung up by the thick of our necks A futile wail and a nice stiff drink Knowing that it will come in a sudden blink Feeling so tired With eyes open all the time Nearly close to blind Well now this is quite a bind Oh so tempted Just to tune it all out Really just wish we could Bring about a turnabout Feeling so scared While I’m walking down the street There’s a big day coming One that we don’t want to meet You see the thing is We’ve already figured it out But the deaf ears Leave it all shrouded in doubt That’s why all the artists are making art And all the athletes are getting on their knees Nobody wants to get hit by this runaway cart But at least we’re all trying to do our parts Look deep inside the truth is in your heart Look deep inside the truth is in your heart

Waking in a haze Seeking Clarity Open the blinds Let the sun shine in Let the sun shine in Little sticky eyes Wipe off the crud Open peephole Gotta tune the sight Gotta tune the sight And everyday The fear penetrates Who am I Where am I What am I And everyday The dread dissipates There’s no time What a crime There’s no time Turn in the blanket And reset the clock A little more time To lose the thought To lose the thought Move the body Feet touch the floor A little stretch It’s all so sore It’s all so sore And everyday The fear escapes Where’s the road Where’s it going Where am I And everyday Feelings elate Just get dressed Hairs a mess What was that Don’t remember a thing Wouldn’t care too Who am I Where am I What am I Who am I Where am I What am I Who am I Where am I What am I

Feel it crumble down As I hit the ground Gotta drag myself Out of the cars way Limping down the street To the urgent care Get an xray done There’s nothing there Walking down the stairs Feel it come again Throw down my bags And scream without a care Propping up my leg Cover it in ice Can’t stop the work There’s no respite Slanted heels on the sole worn down Place the foot on it’s side Feel the knee as it slides all around Nausea coming up inside Inside Inside On that fateful day Up in the air A twist in time A life of care A stinky brace Two different feet A constant fear Of walking down the street Walking down the street Walking

I keep seeing your face And the back of your head I still remember our place And drooling on the bed And all the tunes we shared The opening of my eyes Getting randomly paired Yet no need for disguise It’s all wrong it’s all wrong It’s all gone it’s all gone it’s all I still remember your laugh Cracking away at good times And seeing your health fade During the waters rise A little blurry room And red spice on the door Hanging cloud of doom A cold hard floor But those days are gone So much pressure to have fun And as the remnants bask in light They know it’s going to be a long long long night And while the anamnesis explodes And all the faults are plated in gold They keep spinning that one sound bite And they know it’s going to be a long long long night Feeling pensive with every breathe What to do with what is left Need a brief moment of respite Yeah they know it’s going to be a long long long night Spending time in delirium’s town Black is white and up is down Faded words in graphite And they know it’s going to be a long long long And they know it’s going to be a long long long And they know it’s going to be a long long long And they know it’s going to be a long long long night And they know it’s going to be a long long long And they know it’s going to be a long long long

Close the blinds Turn out the lights Gonna bath in moving bytes on the screen Take it all away To lands that have never been Seen What a dream No ties to reality Got nowhere else to be No one who cares to see Burning the night away Don’t wanna see another Day What a waste Just taking up all this space Button down feeling alive Whatever happened to all that drive Getting xp and leveling up Getting loot and feeling tough Dungeon down find another one And repeat, repeat Check the box, advance the plot Side quests sure take a lot Credits roll, pop in another one Sun comes out Still awake Can I get another take I don’t think it autosaves Guess that is just another Day What a waste Just taking up all this space Button down feeling alive Whatever happened to all that All that drive

Slogging through a calm day Sitting under a tree Got a book at my side As I lay my hair down and then Close my eyes Feeling so fine Watching the clouds go by Little squirrels at my side Feel the breeze through my hair And I can’t see anything that is not there Holding me down It is like a waking dream Imagining how life could be Aspirational philosophy Normalcy is so cobwebby There is a picnic blanket next to me Filled with all the goodies I can dream Concealed wine is flowing so free Feeling so merry merry Feeling so light and free and Feeling so happy happy Finally have found contentment Found contentment Found contentment Found contentment It really opened my eyes I thought it was all a lie Ruminating all the effort applied Chasing euphoric highs And instead of feeling like I’d already died Just needed to spend some time outside And feel connected to it all And feel at one with everything And feel connected to it all And feel at one with all the world world world world There is a lazy day Waiting for you Don’t let it pass you by It may not come by again so soon So enjoy

Had a dream the other day Couldn’t get it out of my brain Thought streams are so constrained Can’t even count the refrains And as I wander through the city Couldn’t see a thing at all Not the fat bodega Kitty Or those nice people from down the hall And as I’m standing on the subway Eyes glazing over melting words Knees adjusting to the cars sway Washing over a mind perturbed And it fades away Not meant to see Could never be Twisted fantasy And as I trudge along the hudson Taking in the skyline in the cruise ships wake Search inside and just find nothing These fae ridden days are too much to take And as I wander through the city Everything just feels so far away The lengths of time can be so flitty What is it the frizz wants to convey Had a dream the other day Couldn’t get it out of my brain Thought streams are so constrained Can’t even count the refrains Had a dream the other night And now the world is bathed in fright Woke up searching for starlight Humanity crushing that plight I doubt the stories are airtight Can’t help but wonder despite Won’t ever prove the theories right Still gotta deal with all these wights And all the moments I could cite Would come out as nothing more than slights Can’t think of anything that’s not trite And all the hours are finite A half blurred face Composite Place An unslapped bass And lines retraced A hope debased Mental subspace Please don’t erase That little touch of grace

Sitting around Looking at a little slit Open wide Let the air come in Hear the song Hottest beat I’ve ever made Hear them yell Feeling oh so fine Hear them yell Feeling oh so fine See the car parked out back Warning flashing on Hours by, killing time And those lights are still on Hours by, their lights are still on The night moves on Yeah the night moves on Shower stall Sitting down Can’t even fit Shower Stall Don’t fit just don’t care Shower stall, oh so small Laying on the ground Can’t get up Don’t want to move at all Shower stall Don’t want to move at all Dining Hall I saw you cry Didn’t do nothing I was paralyzed Dining hall I saw you cry Didn’t do nothing I was paralyzed Little room, pipe goes round Seeing messed up images Turn it around Don’t remember if we turned around Little room crooked pipe Twisting images on our last night Wish that I said some goodbye Wish that I said a better goodbye Walking home see a fox Lock eyes, lock eyes Walking home saw a fox Locked eyes He moved on Moved on Heard a scream in woods Primordial Never explained Never explained Yeah I heard a scream Primordial in the woods It was near the log Where we sat Joked around Pretended we were So very very hard to find Pretended we were So very very hard to find Walking home Trapping me in the corner Got blood on your hands Calling my boy mao zedong Walking home Got me trapped in the corner Blood on your hands Calling me saying that I’m looking like Meat loaf We both agree We both agree Trapped in the corner staring down blood covered hands Trapped in the corner starting down blood covered hands Stolen guitar By a friend Precious heirloom turned into drug money Stolen guitar is no longer around Beautiful sound as I watch the hands Impressing me Proving to me that I still have so much to learn Now it’s all gone Uh uh uh uh The offers to get twisted Trying to be good and then let it go Just let it go Dining hall saw you cry Didn’t do nothing I was paralyzed Dining hall never really said goodbye Walking around That nice town See you passing by give you a nice hello Always wanted to let you know Dining hall I saw you cry And i didn’t do nothing I was paralyzed In the Dining hall I saw you cry I should have stood up, should have stood up But I did not do shit It’s a huge regret In the dining hall my future son says hello In the dining hall my future son said hello My future son said hello And I never said goodbye The g men came My rooms a mess Probably didn’t smell too great Yeah the g men come They said you were burning up Brown coats Fake accents Eyeing me down like I was complacent Yeah the g men came And my room was a mess I was just making tunes With my piano skills I didn’t have Yeah I was just making tunes With skills that I didn’t have I saw the broken window pane Saw you later then You said you put your foot through it Why are you such a mess You put your foot through the window pane It caused you nothing but pain and shame Burning on Burning on Lobby Burn burn burn burn burn burn burn burn Burn the paper in the lobby I wish things could have turned out right I wish things could have turned out right All the faces recognizing The faces looking at them All the faces seeing faces seeing them When the sun goes down Sitting around park benches When the sun goes down Sitting round the benches Or in the nooks That’s where we lived When the sun sitting on the benches Or in the nooks With our backs to the windows Where the security desks just watched us Yeah the security desks just watching us Sitting around the courtyard Don’t remember a thing that was said Sitting around the courtyard Don’t remember a thing that was, that was said The meth head Claiming I knew how to hook him up He said I must because I have long hair Yeah the meth head Just screaming round Accusing me of just screwing around Because I wouldn’t hook him up with more meth I guess long hair means you know how to get meth Walking home I heard someone yelling from the window They called me A faggot Yeah walking home I heard a voice from the window Yelling at me And they called me A faggot And walking home Heard a voice from the window He was saying I should come up He thought I was a girl And I was hit on from the window I was hit on from the window I was hit on from the window He thought I was a girl And he thought it was okay To hit on me from inside of his room He thought it was okay To hit on me from his room Dining hall Saw you cry Didn’t do nothing I was paralyzed In the dining hall Never really said goodbye In the dining hall Saw you cry Didn’t do nothing I was paralyzed I just wanted to Say I really messed up In the dining hall Saw you cry Didn’t do nothing I was paralyzed In the dining hall I never really goodbye Never really said Yeah I never really said Yeah I never really said Yeah I never really said Yeah I never really said Yeah I never really said Yeah I never really said Yeah I never really said Yeah I never really said Yeah I never really said Yeah I never really said Yeah I never really said Yeah I never really said Never really said goodbye Never really said never really said goodbye Thinking back I wish I knew why Don’t know who I’m kidding Totally know why